The past two days I have slept until noon. I'm taking this as a bad sign and I can only conclude that I'm officially going stir crazy. I also think that I would have woken up earlier and just left the house to do something, but my eyes have been having some sort of allergic or infectious reaction to something since Portland and it makes it hard for me to want to do much. It's not as bad as it was last fall but still irritating.

I'm starting to feel extremely anxious about my summer plans. I applied to CTY a few months back, which would give me 7 weeks of steady employment with nights and weekends off (I didn't apply to be an RA again, which is 24/7) and help me with a huge chunk of money needed to move. After two months of silence, I finally called them up this week to inquire on my status and now am back in waiting mode while they check into the process on my file. Meanwhile, I've still been trying to get a second job to supplement SCORE!, but apparently trying to babysit is just as tough a process as getting a 'real job,' and the temp agency I've gotten in touch with is unsure they can help me with only daytime availability.

Which leaves me with these scenarios: 1. Work at CTY and leave for Portland mid-August. Brian may end up having to go out earlier if he's needed to work. This would kind of suck. 2. Ultimately be rejected from CTY and leave for Portland mid-July, and borrow a large sum of money to furnish my move. Now, depending on when I know about CTY either way, I may or may not be able to do anything about additional employment around here.

The worst part is, I have plenty of things that I could be doing with all my free time... I just don't want to do it. I really feel like my life has been interrupted for the past three months and I can't do anything to propel it forward.

Trying to take it one day at a time...