I've finished three days of training at SCORE! and have, I think, one more session before I full on start working. I've been training on the Personal Academic Training program, which we didn't have at my old center - so I've had to learn all of the information and processes from scratch. We had the Advantage Program which is the computer-based curriculum, and on which I'll be coaching as well.

Training has been... overwhelming. There's a lot of information there, and I'm reading it from a binder mostly - which isn't really the best way that I learn. The funny thing is that during my interview I was asked what my biggest challenge is in a job, and I said that I'm sometimes overly eager to just jump right into things and learn everything I can as quickly as possible. And that's exactly what I'm going through.

Apart from that, though, I'm also dealing with a lot of memories and nostalgia that's brewing just from being back in the environment, and hearing the language that used to be a part of my every day. I had a lot of responsibility as a Director back then, and owned a lot of my own projects, relationships with families and children, and had a lot of knowledge about the business. While I still understand the reasons I left, it's just really startling to be back there, but learning something new, but still seeing very familiar things. And also working in a position where I don't have the authority that I used to, and don't have to think about students in the way that I used to... but I can't just turn that part of my brain off.

I'm excited to just be a month into it, when the newness/oldness has worn off, and my training is over, and I'm just there to do my job. I'm feeling an intense pressure to be really, really great at it... and trying to get over that hump and realize that I don't always need to be the best.