So in my meme post below, I was faulty in stating that I saw no concerts in 2007. Actually, I saw two.

The first was Hanson in early March. I went alone, in Sayreville, NJ. I left work early, took the train home, and drove there - got hopelessly lost trying to find the damn place (I am not the only one, either - the website even ACKNOWLEDGES IT though promptly denies it. Don't believe their lies! You can ask my dad - he was on the phone with me, giving me directions as I sobbed) - you can read about my thoughts on the show here.

The second was Snow Patrol in late March. Jaymie and I saw them in Madison Square Garden - some sort of review here. Though it's more about my knees... sigh...

Now... I really can't think of a reasonable explanation why I blanked on these two shows. I think 2007 has just felt like a really long year, and I've experienced it in these sort of phases that have individually been such undertakings that I've lost track of the passage of time.

In packing up my room today I found a few notebooks from college (or maybe the first year in NYC) with pages of writing in them that I barely remember writing. I put them aside with plans to read through them when I have some time, and familiarize myself with the style and ease with which I used to write... not just words, but lyrics of my heart and mind. I feel so far removed from a time when I was romantic and passionate, and could weave beauty with my words, and not only feel something incredibly strong and encompassing for someone but also articulate it to them so that they might understand just how deep my feelings ran for them.

Sometimes I get the sense that Brian doubts the intensity of my feelings - or the longevity of them, I suppose. And I think it's partially because of this block that's been in my head this past year. Although I've gained good things, I've also lost some pretty significant things as well, and I'm starting to see that rub off on my aura. My strength has always been in words and yet I feel like when I try to tell him how I feel, my tongue freezes and I'm not expressing myself in the way I'd like to. I want to change that.

I think I should do Blog 365. Especially because I think 2008 is going to be a doozy.