Well, it's been a few days since my relapse into childhood clumsiness and I thought it was time to provide some visual supplements to my story. Hope you're not about to eat. (click to enlarge, if you really want...)

left knee. pretty bruised but not too painful.

right knee. it used to look worse. and it hurts a lot.

That aside, it's been a whirlwind couple of weeks for me. I've been thinking nonstop about my life and decisions I've made, whether out of my own volition or been forced to make due to circumstances beyond my control, and again am emerging with an overwhelming sense of peace. And I love that I'm at the point where I can still feel this peace despite the turbulence that frequently surrounds me.

Theresa got married this past weekend, and it was also the first time I saw Lauren since her wedding. It's really made me loosen my grip on my own heart and ideas about love - whatever it's supposed to mean to me at this point. Watching them openly give themselves to one other person, after having been through so much, was so encouraging to me after all of the emotional hesitation that I've experienced and watched my city friends experience as well. I don't know. We're obviously all in different places, but I also wonder if I'm in the wrong place for a relationship. Or whatever it is that I'm looking for.

My life is never dull - and I love it that way. I love constantly rethinking, rehashing, re-evaluating. Everything happens for a reason, for sure. But it's not always immediately clear what that reason is and I'm welcoming the perpetual challenge of figuring that puzzle out.