and it was oddly therapeutic. I'm not normally a stress cleaner, although yesterday I did clean my room and also clear out my old files. Tomorrow I'm lugging a year's worth of credit card bills (from 2005...) to work to throw in the shredder.

Anyway it's nice to have a clean bathroom, except now I'm reluctant to use it because then it'll just get dirty again.

Can you tell that I'm writing about stupid things like cleaning the bathroom because somehow I can't bring myself to write what's really on my mind?

what's really on my mind
1. i'd like to redesign my site
2. i went to my ex-boyfriend's house last night for the first time in about two years and it was strange in a disconnected sort of way
3. i miss running and i kind of want to cry about it some more
4. i'm worried that without running i won't be able to regulate my body
5. i'm also worried that i won't find the motivation to start running again
6. i think i'm irreversibly emotionally stunted
7. i want it to be warm
8. i want to take a nap