Today I didn't finish my 12 mile run. It was mostly very painful - I felt tired, sluggish, slow, and had difficulty breathing normally. My right knee (which is NOT the one with the old high school tennis injury) hurt intermittently, there were no sidewalks for a good portion of it (like... what the hell?), there were way more hills than I'd anticipated, and after about 8 or 9 miles I just couldn't bear to continue. I had just kind of hit my breaking point... and then once I'd stopped to walk I couldn't start again because my knees really started to bother me.

I was really disheartened that I couldn't finish, even though I knew that I had done a decent amount of work just by virtue of the hills... and more I'm really worried about my knees. Going up and down stairs for the rest of the day was excruciating and the thought of heading back out for my next run on Tuesday just makes me want to crawl into a hole and die. Except I can't crawl, because it would hurt my knees.

So, I am stuck. The race is so soon and I know that part of me wants to finish it, but the other part of me is really disappointed that I didn't finish my run today... and wondering how I'm going to be able to pull off 13.1 miles with my knees in the shape that they're in.

And I think I'm just... really... tired. :(