Do you ever think about friends you've had? I mean all of the friends you've ever had? And then do you think about how many of them you are no longer in touch with? Then, to take it a step further, do you think about why you are no longer in touch? What your last interaction was like? Was it amicable, and you just fell out of sync? Or was there friction?

Are human beings that intrinsically sensitive and prone to grudges that we would let so many friendships go because of friction, or even just an extended time of being "too busy"? (Or is it just me?)

Maybe we are built that way so that we don't overextend ourselves into caring about too many people. I've got a handful of people who have my heart unconditionally; maybe that's all I can handle.

All the same - I find myself counting the people I've fallen out of touch with due to friction and I hate how high the number is, especially considering the kind of bond we once had. Did we just grow out of each other? Or were the emotions just too intense to recover from how much we'd perhaps unintentionally hurt each other?

Why do we meet so many people, only to weed out the single few that we are meant to keep in our lives forever?

While Alice and Tati were here I realized that we've known each other for six years. That's at least three times longer than I've known anyone I met in New York. And there are not many people in my New York social circle now that I've known for much longer than a few months. Is that the way it's going to be from now on? As long as I keep picking up and moving on, will I just keep leaving people behind, and vice versa?

When I leave New York, will I take anyone with me?