and in line with my last post i am running through the people who have been important to me in the last year, starting with the beginning of the middle of the end of last year's "someone" and ending with what i think is the end of the end of this year's (or something?) and also the beginning of a nowhere road with the current, and everything in between-

why is it that the only person who's consistently meant something, is someone that i don't think i'll ever touch?
is it because it's not the right time?

i always get swept away with ideas like this and am too self-aware for my own good. someone shake me, wake me and bring me back to reality. i am so much more than this pettiness. right?

why can't i let it go?