Don't know what it is, something about today, the air, the light sunshower on my way home, the book I'm reading for work, the way I woke up this morning feeling so completely normal, or hearing about just what awful favoritism is blatantly happening in places I've long left behind-

But I just feel like I'm plowing full-steam ahead with plans of who I want, what I want, what I need, whom I need... and most importantly whom I want. Every day I see so much that makes me want to love, be in love, deliriously comfortable with someone, but I'm starting to see that that is possible without so much thought and so much pain. Mostly it is possible without so much heartbreak.

Why can't we just enjoy each other's company? I need to sink back into my skin, comfortable, and be okay with my own decisions, take confidence in them, and above all be happy and proud. With that, I can enjoy myself in another's company and feel secure that they are enjoying me too.