I just had a long talk with Saad about what I expect out of a work environment, which of course led to a discussion about Oasis. And I just felt myself getting so agitated. Maybe it's partly because in almost all of my interviews, I asked about supervision and management styles as well as development slope, and received positive answers about all of them, restoring my faith in my presupposed belief that some employers actually care about their employees, even the ones at the bottom of the pond.

Also, I'm about to work in Human Resources, so it's something that I will probably be thinking about a lot.

I guess I am still angry at the way I was handled, and I'm trying not to be self-righteous about it, even though I feel like the people there who had the most problems with me are pretty self-righteous themselves. There's no sense of supervision there, only hierarchy and inconsistent delegation. I was told I had creative freedom and encouraged to present my ideas, but also then micro-managed and treated like a peon. When I asked what I could do to improve my relationship with my supervisor, she told me that I should pay more attention to detail - which was something that I agreed I needed to do, but had nothing to do with our actual daily interaction.

There is rampant bias and favoritism there, which I just think is awful. I of course acknowledge that that exists in any workplace, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I guess what's worst is that everyone there who could have intervened in it for me, was biased against me. It's such a passive aggressive and assumptive environment and I guess I just didn't belong. I just hate that they managed to hurt me so much in the process.

And since when was it okay for an organization whose primary purpose is to impact children, to write a person off for being young? Can all the parents in New York please know this? Might as well feed their children to a cave full of large bullies.

I know I will eventually need to let this go, especially as I venture into the next stage in my employed life, but it's only been a month and it still smarts. I'm still sickened and disheartened, and mostly angry that the people who hurt me got the last word without thinking they did anything wrong.